Me myself and my stories :)

First entrepreneurial experince

2012-01-19T09:50:00.000-08:00

I always wanted to do something other than work. Through a friend of mine I was offered to build a website for a Actuaries/Actuarial company called Modev.

Though the client was sitting in Paris, the work and experience was really great.....

After 3-4 months of on-off work...the website is live now and its called

www.modevinternational.com

Hangover review meeting

2009-10-16T03:52:00.000-07:00

When most of us got up in the morning...it was actually not morning but almost afternoon. We(me,Nid, PP and Rakz) went and had breakfast. Then we all went to hari's room when Nish, Unni, Kiran, Hari were still in the lost world.

Nishanth was trying to find out how so much money came to his pocket. Nish had taken everybodies contribution and given his card to pay the bill.

Kiran the great while contributing thought he was given 3 100's note but one of it was thousand note. He did not even remember paying nor did he remember going to the resturent. The amazing question he asked was "Was I not even able to walk". Buddy forget about walking you were not able to stand and not even to sit either

Hari was the center of attraction. He was made to head bang, also virtually gave blow job to everybody

We just burst in laughter mimiking the way Nishanth was checking the bill......One thing that Nish remembers is that he gave review for the dj which I think nobody could even read. Not to mention he too does not remember what he has written.

Nish had tumbled upon a guy to spill all his beer on the floor. Later he slipped on the same beer to fell head backwards twisting his leg. The guys curse had hit Nish....

My true head banging was a point of talk and laughter for sometime. I also challenged that I drove back safely after the party only to be reminded by Hari that I actually drove on one way. I did not argue further.

Everybody was talking abt what they remember from previous night...

We even thought of taking down Minutes of meeting. This was probabaly the first time we were having such intense and fun filled review on the privous night's hangover

There are thing which cannot be expresses. You need to be there to enjoy it.....

Hangover....

2009-10-15T05:28:00.000-07:00

While leaving from home at 8:45 I never expected the night be a rocking one. PP had come over from mysore for cyclothon and I thought of spending the night with all of the guys(Nish, Nid, PP, Rakz).

Me -- "Nid I am starting from home"

Nid -- We are in Purple Haze come directly

Me -- I am flying to PH

I entered the pub only to hear the loudest and the most rocking musing being played. My eyes wandered in search for Nid and Nish. When I found them there were 9 of them. Together they jumped on me. Hugging, lifting and even beating me....a Rocking entry to an even more Rocking place.

These guy were here from 7:30 itself...that explains why everybody gave me a rocking entry.

I saw Nish just pouring beer till the brink one after other...it was just not the glass that was filled but everybody had reached to the brink. But something was telling them u can have just a lil more.

One side Hari was just staring at something totally lost which I am sure he does not remember

Kiran had almost given up to keep his body upright....

Rakz just could stop looking at girls.....

John was acting like a bull set free after months......he had tasted beer after a long time. He wanted to make this one count

Unni(Hari bro) was the most behaved guy in our group. He was enjoying seeing all of us...

Shenaaz was non stop head banging ...it had taken not just beer but also Takeela shots for him to reach this state

I also tried head banging only to hit some bodies head...then a sound from within told me "Buddy u r drunk so just keep quite"

PP scoundrel was missing. I thought ...have I drunk so much that I cannot see him at all. But then Nid told me that he had left for dinner party of Glaxin.

Then came the whopping bill of 7K in which half was already paid by cover charge. Now Mr Adu wanted to check the bill .

He took out the pen and read loudly

"4 Peanut masala" correct and put a tick mark on the bill ....I could see a hole in that part of the bill

"4 figer chips" ..I held his hand so that no more holes are made on the bill

"15 Pitcheres" ...incorrect we never had 15 pitcheres. Thats what we feel after getting drunk. He drew a line till the top of the bill and wrote "Wrong".

Nid's was smart to understand that Nish had no clue what he was doing and collected the bill. Somebody paid and all I remember is we got out of the Pub.

I also remember reaching Empire hotel and then I went blank. Somebody work me up after everybody finished dinner. I could see Kiran had thrown up. Hotel charged Rs50 as cleaning charges.

Nid went down to call Auto while Nish and Unni were helping Kiran get down the stairs.

Auto: where Sir

Nid: Madiwala

Auto: Rs100 kodi

Nid: illa illa 40

Auto: 80 final last ashte ashte

Nid: illa illa 60 final and the rate was finilized by Nid

Nish went to the same auto person and said

Nish: Eshtu

Auto: 100

Nish: illa illa 80 final ...

Nid's bargain had just gone for toss. Now the auto person was demanding 80 instead of 60. Nid went to another auto and fixed the rate.

I took my Activa and hari joined me. Thanks to the rain who made sure that police did not catch us.

We reached room and my body fell on the bed and it was morning when I woke up.

last night was a real hangover

Secret Msg System

2009-10-05T07:23:00.000-07:00

Secret message system implementation.

One : Cant call husband with me

Two: Don't call. Everybody staring at my mobile itself

Three: Call me I am free

Four: Cant Call. In-Laws with me

Five: I am free but not in mood

Sleeping SID

2009-10-05T07:05:00.000-07:00

If anybody wants to go and watch "Wake up sid" based on Masand's review..plzzz dont read further.

I went into this movie with high expectation. Probably that was my mistake and may be the reason I was disappointed. To start off the movie I think did not have a script writer or if there was on he was paid for nothing.

The movie goes on as expected without any element of surprise. You can just guess the next scene at any point of time. Its just seems they were lacking creativity. The most visible thing in the movie was the way its been dragged dragged dragged. Given to direct I would have finished the movie in not more than 15mins.

The only light moment in the movie was when the heroin decides to go for a walk with SID at night within 5mins of their first meeting and just waits to make it clear to SID that she is not going to sleep with him. Though SID had never thought abt it.

Anyhow the **** given by Times of India would have been 4 more stars provided the producer gave Times people few more lakhs.

A 1.5 out of 5 for this movie. If you don't have anything else to do and have some money to spend, Go try this movie.

If you expected me to narrate the story then I am sorry, I already told you above that there isn't one in this movie

Carlsberg beauty

2009-10-05T05:08:00.000-07:00

Well begun is work half done. I am sure you would have heard it. The aim of the day was to have fun. I wanted to meet NId, Nish, Rakz and have some fun. So there I was in Madiwala. Me and Nish went to get some beer. Nish knew he wanted to have nothing other than Carlsberg.

When we entered Nid's room with Carlsberg, I could could see a biiiiiig smile on his face. Cheeeers to life and there went the first sip inside. Wonderful feeling and then I knew why Nish searched untill we got Carlsberg. Enjoyed the beer like never before. Life become so much more beautiful when everybodies around and nothing to worry with a beer in hand.

Just to capture the moment we took 5-6 snaps and somebody screwing it up each time. But all of them look like Kodak moments. Rakz joined us and we all then went to UB city for for for absolutly nothing. Nish though still thinks we went their to buy a piar of formals for him. Shirts starting 15K and trousers probably 18K we should have sold Nish to buy a pair of formals.

We all then went to Nandini and had a BB(Biriyani and Beer) Lunch. Rakz had to leave to due to his personal commitments. We all then went to Corner house and had DBC. As I said before Life looks so much more beautiful when we guys are together. Cheers to life and cheers to us.

The Swine Flu fear

2009-10-01T23:57:00.001-07:00

Just when I was riding on my wife's activa, I breeze hit me. I started sneezing non-stop. The cold has hit me hard. The nose started flowing non stop. I waited for a day but the nose had not stopped. So finally decided to visit a doctor.

The first thing the doctor did was to put on a mask before checking me. A thought of swine flu just passed through my mind. The doctor said I had FLD which meant Flu like disease. Strictly asked me avoid office and to take rest for 3 days.

Swine flu fear has grown bigger. I also put on a mask which only made the fear grow bigger. 3 tables per time for 5 days is what it took to beat the fear. My health was coming back to normal and so was the fear.

A ripple that drowned me...

2009-08-18T07:04:00.000-07:00

One always thinks what he/she has done is right.Of cource its right in ur perspective but might not be the same with elses perspective. Most often when arguments happen both sides think they are correct. Such arguments are endless and creates more pain than anything. But is it possible to be quite all the time to avoid arguments. Probabaly not. So the bubble has to burst some day and when it does it creats ripples around. I just got drowned because of one such ripple. I just started learning to swim and I hope that I learn it fast so that I can resist such ripples and go on to swim further.

My daily ride

2009-07-16T23:30:00.000-07:00

I love to do adventure but this is of a different kind. The Girl at last got her new Activa which has been her long pending dream. Just owning an Activa is not enough, you should also know to ride it.

Now its my duty to teach her to Ride. The truth is that the Girl has never even ridden a bicycle and that makes the situation so lovely. How on earth will I teach her riding activa is what I initially thought. But she is heck of a quick learner. Within a weeks time she managed to drive alone near the house. Now she wanted to take on the real challenge of driving on main road. Probabaly she has never heard of the proverb "Slow and steady wins the race".

She convinced me to take the Activa to the battel field with me sitting behind. So there I am sitting behind her daily while going to office and while coming from office. Mornings are fine as there is not much traffic but while coming back in the evening its really a battle field. Since I am teacher I have the privilege of giving her marks based on her driving. The girls normally manages to score 9 out of 10 in the morning and 0 out of 10 in the evenings.

There has been only one advantage of teaching her driving. Last week when we all went to a pub and I had boosed. She drove me back home without me fearing abt Cops.

The Breakout...

2009-07-06T03:17:00.000-07:00

Now a day its not very often its possible to meet everybody in our group together. But this time it happened and everybody made it except Nish. I picked up Nid on the way at 10:30 and soon we were on to mysore road along with my wife(Nethra). There was no hurry so I drove aaraam se with a break near Maddur coffee day. We had some Ice cold coffee and Nethra had her Dark Forest cake. That is when I said "Life is beautiful". How often do we really think Life is beautiful. Anyhow we just enjoyed our drive to mysore and reached Jay's home at 1:30. Abhi and Jimsha the guests from Hydrabad has already arrived.

To my surpise the Lunch was almost ready. Chicken, Fish curry, Rice etc etc all prepared by Anu and Jimsha. Jay looks like such a responsible husband :) taking care of all logistics .

Anyhow Rakz was the surpise package who had decided not to come. But he could not resist coming and he rode his bike at highest possible speed just to pay fine to police and to reach quickly. So there we were in mysore at Jay's house. Everybody of us(Me, Jay, Nid, Abhi, Rakz, PP, Jim, Anu, Nethra) except Nish who is (in) Deep shit(according to him) as he has to give a presentation to a huge east asian audience.

Jay did not leave any stone unturned to make sure his LCD TV and home theater was in place and working condition by the time we reach. He also put the spiderman movie like in the LCD TV shops to show the clarify and features of the TV. Anyhow we all liked his house.

I had kabab prepared by Anu. Later I came to know that it was chilly chicken not kabab. Never the less the lunch was quite good. :). After lunch all guys had some time just to chit chat rolling over each other. Anything that looked good in Jay's house was from dubai :).

In the evening we all left to Planet X. We had awsome time eating, drinking, bowling. Oh if you really wanna enjoy bowling then you really should have a big group like us. We almost played for 2 hours and at the end Rakz won the game. Anusha tried her best to hit but most often ended up in gutter. Jimmu started of quite nicely but then followed Anusha's way. Nethra was better who managed to hit most of the times. Anyhow it was real fun. Later we guys went for Go-Karting. I beat everybody by almost 2 rounds. Rakz was warned couple of times. Nid and PP were in there own world while driving.

The clock showed 9:30 and it was time to go and some dinner at our Favroute place Green's. I always wanted to take Nethra to Green's just because of its ambience. We had a lovely dinner with everybody trying to speak to be waiter in kannada. Gosh we laughed laughed and laughed cracking all kinds of jokes. This was the kind of breakout that I was looking forward to.

2nd day's fun to be continued…….

Mile stones :)

2009-06-03T23:00:00.001-07:00

Its been a while since I blogged but it was always there back of my head. Anyhow there are couple of milestones that I would like to share
The first would be 1 year completion in EMC. Time has gone by so fast and I never realized that i have spent 1 year with this organization. Anyhow my access card which stopped working reminded me of my 1 year completion.

Another mile stone is 1 month completed since my marriage. It seems I have been married more than a month. But the dates suggests it just been a month. I am very happy that its going quite well. Hope to say the same couple of year down the line.

Cant write too much now since I am in a training. So I better get back to my class..

3 more days to go....

2009-04-29T04:48:00.000-07:00

I am still sitting in office finishing of my work. When I leave today it will be such a relief for another 21 days. 3 more days to go for my marriage and I still cant beleive that I am getting married. Probabaly once the rituals starts and when the full focus will be on me and Nethra I will get the seriousness. People expect that now that I am getting married I should be lil more serious. But thats something not even within 2KM vicinity.
Actually my friends have planned a trip to coorge after which they will attend my wedding. Wish I could also join the trip. I am running around to arrange stay and drinks for my friends.

from 2moro it will like jail for me since I will not be allowed to go anywhere. So I am getting prepared to listen to my parents and relatives for another 3-4 days. After which I will be a responsible husband. Ha ha ha sounds great. Lets see whats waiting for me. The cat will be out in another 3 days :)

Getting Married !!! Ohhhhhh

2009-04-21T08:18:00.001-07:00

Me getting married on May 3rd is probabaly the most apt reason for me not blogging these days. Oh my God cant beleive that in less than 10 days my Maritual status is going to get changed. What a change its going to be. Guys who are already married might be laughing how foolish I am writing all this and being so happy. But seriously I am probabaly one of the most optmistic guys in the world. I can bet things will change after marriage but not too much to make me regret.
Anyhow time is flying, my tension is growing. Me thinking all the time about the arrnagements, giving invitation cards, shopping bla bla bla. The biggest appluase should go to my Parents who have been untiringly planning for my wedding right from priting the cards, shopping sarees, distributing invitations and keeping all relatives happy which is probabaly most challenging thing
I should confess here that no matter how much pain I take,,there is always a sense of satisfaction. The fun part is my friends are not leaving any chance to make me realize that my bachelor days are over. Soon the next phase of life is going to start. I am very lucky to find a perfect(as of now) partner for myserlf. But thats something most of them feel while getting married. I would love to repeate the last sentence after couple of years later. As days are coming closer there are few butterflies in my stomach.

So guys I will be on leave for a month. I will try and blog but not sure if I will able to.
I will catch up all ur blogs once I am back. Untill then enjoy blogging.

Rock ethos concert

2009-03-20T03:07:00.000-07:00

Mar 14 2009 Rock ethos concert

Venue: Bangalore palace grounds

A normal weekend got converted into a memorable one. I give the credit to Ram(name changed)who called me up and planned for the Rock show at the palace grounds. I had little expectations since I don’t listen much of Rock musiq. But then how would I know that I would learn new things at the concert. Again I would give some credit to Ram.

Enemies were at the gate exactly at 7PM and we entered the world of Rock musiq not before having a small argument with Bike Parking guy for taking more money. We were frisked at the entry gate and 2 bottle of Vodka were into the concert unnoticed by the Police. Great security I should say.

When we entered the atmosphere was almost set. But vodka inside shyam(name changed) bag was making too much noise. So I got a glass and when I said lets have it somewhere inside itself Nish disagreed. He wanted to step out of concert to have Vodka. When I question back he said the unsaid rule of a rock concert is not to have drinks inside the concert. The unsaid rule was chanted at last.So we went out to the parking lot. Got couple of lemons also. Ram was all set to finish both the bottle alone but we helped nish with one peg each.

Rock concert is most enjoyable when you have good spirit. So there we were having spirit outside the concert. But once the spirit goes in knowledge comes out. So Ram was all set to make us understand Rock musiq's connection with people mentality, Ram had done all his research to find out that people who love Rock music are very soft at heart and very emotional. People who listen to Classical music(karnatic etc) are mentally/emotionally strong. Good to know such information…..

In the mean time Galeej Gurus were performing. We took our time and by the time we went inside Cryptos were all set to Rock. There came another gyan of the day was "Rock concert is all about head banging" and Ram was in full zoom. I could see so many guys closing their eyes shaking only their heads. Probabaly that’s head banging.Though I hardly understood what was sung but I really enjoyed the guys playing guitar with such ease. Wish I could play my Guitar like that.

Anyhow the show ended and so did the gyan. Back to our homes and with the determination that we will be back when the next concert comes for more enjoyment and more Gyan.

I am not alone..

2009-03-18T01:52:00.000-07:00

Its not often that you find your reflection in other person. But probably I was lucky as I am always. I have not seen this person but we know each other well. I have not heard this persons voice but we communicate well. I have never seen this person but makes me feel as if we know each other from years. The ease with which we talk is unbelievable. Expectations is something that is miles away from us. We don’t expect anything and neither do we complaint.

That why I call this person my reflection. Hope to see u soon my friend. I was afraid I am one of my kind but not anymore

Work -- Tagged by Unmana

2009-03-17T06:19:00.000-07:00

What does work mean to you?
Work has always been a passion for me. Even since I started working almost 6 years ago I never thought I would go on to do so well(Touch wood). To be frank The Girl was my inspiration. I worked hard so that I could be successful and earning well to take care of her.

Work has always been about learning and ready to accept things. Success will find the person who improvises his learnings in his future. I have worked under several manager. Let it be love, work or manager we always tend the cherish the first one. So I do respect my First Manager Sesh and also give him some credit to where I am today. When I had an interview her never used to assign me any work and used to ask me to prepare well.

I have still not started answering What does work mean to me :). Work is something I love to do. Though we get paid for it but still if you don’t love your work then you cant do justice to it. I try and do justice to my job. Though there is so much stress in work but it helps us forget our personal problems at least for a solid 10-12 hours. The satisfaction which we get on finishing something challenging is incomparable. So work gives us the most important thing money, it also gives us satisfaction, stess(got to get used to it) and it also teaches us how to handle difficult situations. I am getting little emotional here but "I love you work"..ummahaaaaaaaaaa.
I have worked with 3 companies and I have loved my work. The day I stopped enjoying my work, would be a the day to move on. I am still at work so I better stop this blog here else …...

Much needed break

2009-03-11T04:30:00.000-07:00

Feb 26: Bangalore leaving to Mysore
Every time I go to Mysore there is new energy that oozes out. That's because there is nobody to restrict. I can be me, myself , enjoying.
Thursday evening I left Bangalore and hit the Mysore road. Mysore welcomed with its usual breeze. PP picked me up and we directly went to the Bopy's.
A cold beer found its way and I could trace its path into my body. My usual peanut masala and PP mutton fry. Far from Bangalore without any tension. Ask me how it felt and I would say "It felt like ice slowly melting on ur plam to find its original state".

Friday I had to visit Virajpet for a function and I spent almost the whole day there. I was back to Mysore by evening. PP is always ready to pick me up. We then went to a wedding of my friend. PP accompanied me there or should I say he had no other option but to come with me since I was not knowing the place. But he did not regret coming with me since there were so many good looking girls in the wedding. PP gave his heart to one of them(Giving heart is his hobby :) ). Through out the wedding he could not stop praising that girl.

Then we went to our favorite restaurant Green Hotel. A candle light drink in a royal style is something very special about that place. A quite place with lovely ambience. The girl called me up and I could see that she was jealous that I am enjoying in Mysore. But this was the much needed break that I had taken.

Saturday was all meant to rest. Got up late and was just rolling on the bed till afternoon. Then a sudden plan to visit Golden temple in Kushalnagar cropped up. Fraction later PP, Anoop and myself hit the road. Spent our evening seeing the Buddhist monastery Golden temple. I stayed back in Kushalnagar since that my native place. PP and Anoop drove back to Mysore.
I was back to Bangalore on Sunday night. Back after a much need break.

Last Birthday as spinster

2009-03-03T20:49:00.000-08:00

March 3rd. It was The Girls birthday. Last birthday that she would celebrate as a spinster. She was very much excited about her birthday. I called her up at night 12 and wished her for her Birthday. In the morning went to pick her up. I had arranged for seasame flowers which she really loved. I also took a small cake and had small cake cutting session within the car.

She was looking stunning draped in her new Saree. We then went to temple afterwhich I dropped her to office.

I the evening my parents, brother, sister-in law and both of us went for dinner to 9th Mile dhabha. Was real good ambiance there. Enjoyed having food, cracking jokes. Then I dropped her back to her hostel and called it a day. I day she celebrated her last birthday as spinster :)

The First official Visit - Feb 1

2009-01-30T18:44:00.000-08:00

The First official Visit...sounds like I am going on a office work but u got it all wrong...
Today we are going to Native(Kushalnagar) and 2moro will be our first official visit to the girls house....I have been to her house thousand times but I am sure it will be different. The way I will be treated will also be diff because now I am the Guy. I am still excited about how it will all chalk out..
The other coincidence is that 2moro its my Bday too. So I will always remember this day
anyhow I am getting late..goto go else since everybody else has already got ready.

mughals in Hydrabad

2009-01-28T09:54:00.000-08:00

Date: Friday(16/01/09) 01:00 PM
From: Jay
To: Rakz;VS;NID;Arun;Sarath;Nish;
Sub: Trip to Hydrabad????

One mail from Jay and everybody were packing bags on Friday evening for a trip to Hydrabad. Two who were not packing were Nid(in US) and PP(had office on Sat). We hit the road on a volvo munching Chips. To our time pass movie Garam Masala was playing and we were laughing loud at times screaming and having loads of fun. Soon we all slept off and Abhi(out host in Hydrabad)woke us up and guided where to get down. We got down at LakadiKaPul where Abhi was waiting for us.

Anu and Jimmu joined us at 9:30. An Innova waiting to take us to Ramoji film city. From there on Film city had become photo shoot location for all of us. We all taking photos, cracking jokes and having loads of fun. Saw couple of shows(Stunt show). Afternoon we all had Shahi Hyd Biriyaani. After lunch a bus ride of the film city, photos, more photos, more n more photos made the watch tick.

Before the sun could say goodbye we got out of the Film city and went to Eat street.

We also visited an elderly teacher who taught Abhi,Jimmu and Anu. He blessed us all. We then finished out dinner. We said Adieu to Jimmu, Jay and Anu for the day. We then went a booked tickets for the next day 3D IMAX show for Polar express.

Then night had just begun for me, Nish, ABhi, Rakz n Sarath. We all went 2 a pub. The ambience was great. Towards the end we all were dancing on the tunes of the DJ. The date on my watch had changed when we went for walk in the night. At last we reached room and let our bodies take some rest.

Day 2 we all went to Golkomda fort. Jay was having fever but he came since he didnt wanna miss us. We hired a guide who explained everything which he probably would have already delivered 1000 times. Golkonda fort is a historic building and we wanted to be associated with it. So took loads of photo wherever possible or not possible. We finished our lunch in a small hostel since we were getting late for the movie. The 3D IMAX was a good experience and was nice to get some rest. Rest not only for us but for the cameras. We also went to Bhudha statue which is in middle of a lake. Illegally Switched our boats to reach Eat street.

The last plan was to go to Charminaar and from there itself go to the Bus stop for returning to blore. We were already running late. I did a rapid shopping of Bangles for Mom, Bhabhi and Nethra.

God bless the Auto which took 6 of us to the Bus stop. I still laugh thinking how we 6 got in a single auto. We took our seats in the Volvo and were on our way back to Blore. Thanks to Abhi, ANu and Jimmu for hosting a wonderful trip.

its a busy world ...

2009-01-15T04:06:00.001-08:00

Its just the beginning of 2009 and everybody seems to be so busy. I wont say its the perfect beginning of the year with so many controversies going on around. Let it be Satyam's cooking the book, Share markets still so low, Job cuts everywhere.

When I come to office the air seems to so thick I tend to feel suffocated. Some of them in fear of loosing Job, some of them too busy in work or pretending so.

Another thing that suggests that everybody is busy is that the usual bloggers are also not blogging nowadays(Unamana, Arun PP, PotPourri).

Is it change or a new beginning

2009-01-09T02:52:00.000-08:00

As time passes tonight shadows will grow lengthier and things would start changing for us(Me, Nid,Nish,Rakz, Arun, Jay). Today the word "We", "US", "All" is what binds us all together. We always wished it would remain the same but everybody knew things would change. The first change is flying tonight at 3AM to to United states for 2months i.e Nidish. Not too much later Raks will be flying to Jidha for an Year.
Jay is also waiting for the confirmed dates for his trip to United states. So half of the people in the "We" are set to go. Things are changing faster than we thought. But still the hope remains that we all will be together for a long long time. Changes are happening but we think this is a New beginning. As Rakz said "sometimes, distances help strengthen relationships." and there would be so much more to share when we all again meet probably in Feb 2010.

Until then we don't know how much more changes we would have to see. But I am sure the craze of being "We" would always remain the same.

The Fallen Tomato Cart

2009-01-08T20:33:00.000-08:00

I pass through this very intersection every morning with so much ease. Today, thepace is skewed. There is a sense of disarray as motorists try to push past each otherthrough the traffic light. The light here always tests their agility because if you missthe green, you have to wait for another three minutes before it lets you go pastagain. Those three minutes become eternity for an otherwise time-insensitive nationon the move. Today, there is a sense of chaos here. People are honking, skirting each other and rushing past. I look out of my windowto seek the reason. It is not difficult to find because it is lying strewn all overthe place. A tomato seller's cart has overturned. There aretomatoes everywhere and the rushing motorists are making pulp of it. The man istrying to get his cart back on its four rickety wheels and a few passersby are picking upwhat they can in an attempt to save him total loss. Though symbolic in the largerscheme of things, it is not a substantive gesture. His business for the day is over. The way this man's economics works is very simple. There is a money lender wholends him money for just one day, at an interest rate of Rs 10 per day per Rs 100lent. With the money, he wakes up at 4 am to go to the wholesale market forvegetables. He returns, pushing his cart a good five miles, and by 7 am when thelocality wakes up, he is ready to sell his day's merchandise. By the end of themorning, some of it remains unsold. This his wife sells by the afternoon and takeshome the remainder, which becomes part of his meal. With the day's proceeds, he returns the interest to the money lender and goes backto the routine the next day. If he does not sell for a day, his chain breaks.Where does he go from here? He goes back to the money lender, raises capital atan even more penal interest and gets back on his feet.

This is not the only time that destiny has upset his tomato cart. This happens to himat least six times every year. Once he returned with a loaded cart of ripe tomatoesand it rained heavily for the next three days. No one came to the market and hisstock rotted in front of his own eyes. Another time, instead of the weather, it was apolitical rally that snowballed into a confrontation between two rival groups and thelocality closed down. And he is not alone in this game of extraneous factors thatseize not only his business but also his life. He sees this happen to the "gol-gappa"seller, the peanut seller and the "vada pao" seller all the time. When their productdoes not sell, it just turns soggy.

Sometimes they eat some of it. But how much of that stuff can you eat by yourself?So, they just give away some and there is always that one time when they have tosimply throw it away. Away from the street-vendor selling perishablecommodity with little or no life support system, the corporate world is an altogetherdifferent place.

Here we have some of the most educated people in the country. Wedon the best garbs. We do not have to push carts; our carts push us. We have oursalary, perquisites, bonuses, stock options, gratuities, pensions and our medicalinsurance and the group accident benefit schemes.

Yet, all the while, we worry about our risks and think about our professional insecurity. We wonder, what would happen if the company shifted offices to another city? What would happen if the department closed down? What would happen if you were to take maternity leave andthe temporary substitute delivered better work than you did? What would happenif the product line you are dealing with simply failed? In any of thoseeventualities, the worst that could happen would still be a lot less than having to see yourcartful of tomatoes getting pulped under the screeching wheels of absolute strangers whohave nothing personal against you.

All too often we exaggerate our risks. We keep justifying our professional concernstill they trap us in their vicious downward spiral. Devoid of education, sophisticatedreasoning and any financial safety net, the man with the cart is often able to dealwith life much better than many of us. Is it time to look out of the window, into theeyes of that man to ask him, where does he get it from? In his simple stoicism, isprobably, our lost resilience.

Wising everybody a Happy New year

2008-12-30T20:14:00.000-08:00

You must be thinking how fast time is passing. It feels like last year had just arrived and within no time we are going to step into the next year. I still remember me writing on my claroom blackboard 01/01/96 and I feel it was just a little time ago. But actually it was almost 12 years ago. So the good thing is time is flying faster than you think and hope everybody is making progressin ur lifes.

I wish everybody a happy happy new year. Let 2009 bring you happiness and fulfill all the dreams that you have seen. I wish myself also a very happy new year. Lets see how this 2009 unfolds. Anyhow will surely keep blogging all the happening in 2009.

Sayonaraaaaa to 2008 and warm welcome to 2009

Hero to Zero in one Kick

2008-12-24T00:23:00.000-08:00

The Girl had gone to visit her mom and since I had not met my Girl this weekend. I offered her a drop to hostel. I reached the stop half an hour ago. Why do I always do this when I have to meet her. Anyhow since I had ample time, I thought of buying flower for her. I got Rose for her and was again waiting for her to come.

As usual my heartbeat became faster and my eyes glowed to see her get down from Bus with a beautiful smile on her face. I had hidden the Rose to surprise her. Then like a hero I kicked my bike only hear blast sound coming from it. My bike refused to start there after. So within mins hero became zero. Never the less she got her Rose and got into another bus and left.

Pulling legs....in Mail

2008-12-22T20:16:00.000-08:00

Guys visiting my page dont have to read this blog entry. Its meant only for me. After many years I am sure I will miss these mail conversation. So just saving it in my blog. If you still wanna to go ahead and read you are welcome to do so but i am sure you will not find any humour in it which only we can find it.

FromVS
Sent: Monday, December 22, 2008 4:10 PM
To: Nish
Cc: niD; Rakz; JAY; PP
Subject: RE: Daaaaaa mosham

Da at least now send few photo from Jays marriage....
ninakku vendatha kore mail aaaykyaan samayam undu..pakshe Jay's marriage sanps download cheyaan samayam illa alle....

Kando Jay ..ithere ullu....

FromJay
Sent: Monday, December 22, 2008 4:21 PM
To: VS
Cc: PP; NID;Rakz
Subject: RE: Daaaaaa mosham

nee enthada arune ingane
ninakku avan paranja pole cheythude ..
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From: VS
Sent: Monday, December 22, 2008 4:17 PM
To: JAY
Cc: PP; NidNish; Rakz
Subject: RE: Daaaaaa mosham

Eda Patti Jay...at least read who is in the "To:" List in the mail ...
Arune nee veshamikenda aaato.....njan nishanthina cheeth vilichade

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From: Nish
Sent: Monday, December 22, 2008 4:14 PM
To: VS
CcNid; Rakz;PP; Jay
Subject: RE: Daaaaaa mosham

Mr. Mangalassery,
samayam alla - ivde prashnam. i ve all the time in the world. no work today.

these are the steps i must follow to get it done.

1. transfering the photos to some pc.
2. burning it to CD
3. getting it to office
4. get scanned by network group
5. copy into my pc, and sending to u all.
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From: Praveen Kumar, Vokkaliga
Sent: Monday, December 22, 2008 4:19 PM
Subject: RE: Daaaaaa mosham

1. transfering the photos to some pc.(Do it on Nid's laptop)
2. burning it to CD(not required)
3. getting it to office(not require)
4. get scanned by network group(not required)
5. copy into my pc, and sending to u all.( send it from Nid's room....he has internet access)

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From: Nish
Sent: Monday, December 22, 2008 4:21 PM
Subject: RE: Daaaaaa mosham

find my comments below.

1. transfering the photos to some pc.(Do it on Nid's laptop) - done, i ve copied it on the first day
2. burning it to CD(not required) - there was no net connection, when i trafsd it
3. getting it to office(not require) - there was no net connection, when i trafsd it
4. get scanned by network group(not required) - there was no net connection, when i trafsd it
5. copy into my pc, and sending to u all.( send it from Nid's room....he has internet access) - good.
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From: PP
Sent: Monday, December 22, 2008 4:29 PM
To: Rathish P
Subject: RE: Daaaaaa mosham

enthu myr anu...oral photo de karyam parayunnu
oral jungle resport nte address ayakkunnu entha karyam..?

enikkonnum manasilavunnilla

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From: Nish
Sent: Monday, December 22, 2008 4:19 PM
Subject: RE: Daaaaaa mosham

i have only one nerve left, and you are getting on it

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From: Jay
Sent: Monday, December 22, 2008 4:33 PM
To: PP
Subject: RE: Daaaaaa mosham

arune.. last time jungle resorts poya snaps evide .. athu ninte kyil alle ulle ....

PS: eniku nalla paniyundu .. bt i lost my passion for work .. and findin it difficult to regain it. help me ..

Thanks for being around

2008-12-22T02:36:00.000-08:00

If you have a friend who can read ur mind what else can you ask for. A person who can sense if you are happy or sad and is always around to comfort you. I enjoy every moment spent and sharing every incident in a microspoic way. Even by chance if I miss out telling something I am sure of getting caught :).

You are one person to whom I can come and share anything without worrying.Thanks for being around.

Good to see you back

2008-12-11T23:12:00.000-08:00

Saying nothing...sometimes says the most in a silent way. And when this silence is broken, that which comes is the real you. After a long time I saw that real you. You were happy like never before and I was happy for you. It was something like the spring had clawed its way back from winter.

Be here and be this way. thats all I can say.
Dont let ur sorrow conquer ur smile away

Not long ago I found ...

2008-12-10T02:20:00.000-08:00

Not long ago I found myself alone in my journey
I looked around to see for the person who started along with me
I waited waited and waited more
Just with the hope to see the person was left behind
I saw a glimmer of hope. The person was back
I ran ran..I ran faster than I ever did
I reached only to find it was just a Camouflage

When there is constant pain u start finding pleasure in it
When you stop being urself, you find the real person within
When you stretch you limits you will learn the pleasure of no limits
When all this happened, I found that I was the one who was left behind

Now its me who is back and its no camouflage
Its always you, its always has been
No matter what happen, we should control the consequences

Not long ago I found that
The fight is never with others, its always is with yourself

Re-Living the pictures

2008-12-09T23:10:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was again a usual day but what made it better than other days was the mins that ticked after 7PM. A small party with office friends(Bala, Madhu, Sreedhar, Vishwa). I also finished dinner with them.
Then a walk from BTM signal to Rakz house. Walking alone in the night thinking of good times is something I always enjoyed. Nish's message "Da get bottle of Vodka if possible" made my mobile beep. The message made my purse little lighter as well. But who the f*** cares abt all this.

As I entered the room, Rakz was sitting in front of his lappy editing photos as expected. I took out my laptop and transferred Jays marriage photos(it had all photos except the actual marriage pics). Then browsing every picture and re-living those moments again. Laughing to death on some special pics like

"Nid tuff Guys look"

"PP's zig zag run

Nish's mid 30's Mohanlal Look

Jays pose.

Soon Nish also joined us in the room to laugh with us. Not much later Nid showed up. We all had galla time laughing as the pictures. laughing at the caption that I have put on my orkut photos. The best caption award was given to the caption
"Standing here I wait for her....but she does not know I am here... " .
While all this happens only one thing striks my mind. These are the days that we will cherish in future. These are the best days of our lives.

Mere Yaar Ki shadi thi

2008-12-03T20:51:00.000-08:00

Its been a wedding we have been waiting for almost a year and planning for almost forever. The wedding which was so special for all(me,Nish,Nid,PP,Rakz) of us. It was Jay and Anu's wedding.
Phew!!!! at last it happened. You bet we enjoyed every moment of their happiness.

To start off, we all reached Jay's home in Palghat couple of days ahead of marriage. We had our moments where we laughed to death for the photo poses that Jay gave. Espacially in the one in which he was suppose to be the Thamboraan(King) and we were the Gunda's. The evening walk to the river. Camera lense tried its best to capture the momemts of our togetherness but it requires little more than that to show what it takes be an element of "US".

Kudo's to PP and Nid for the wonderful Bachelor's party arrangement at a resort in Waynaad. Cheer's to Glaxsin for his drinks management skills. With limited supply of drinks he achieved the target of making 10 people flat. Thanks to everyone who came for the party without whom it would not have been so enjoyable.

At last "THE Day" arrived. I always wondered how a Groom always has a special glow and freshness in his face. I am sure everyone will have that glow one day.
We were with him until the moment Anu stole him away from us for ever at Sunday Nov 30 2008 at 11:30AM. Together we wished him all the very best for this new beginning.

He was the first to get married in our group. Rest of us are bachelors so the banner said it all.

Rock On

2008-11-26T21:02:00.000-08:00

When did I dance last time. I think it was for the last New year party. So for all the dances which I missed whole of this year I paid it back in the office Vibranz party yesterday. We all had fun, we all had beer and so did all of us Dance. The DJ was not that great but once 2-3 bottles of beer goes in it really does not matter does it :). The DJ played some good local number like "Jinkke Mari Na", "Appadi Pode Pode" and "Manmatha Raza Manmatha Raza". As expected few songs from "Rock On" also rocked the party.

Good thing about the party was many attended it and most of them danced. Cheers to everybody who attended it and made it a fun place to dance :)

Calm water

2008-11-25T08:38:00.001-08:00

I'm not a body with a soul, I'm a soul that has a visible part called the body
I threw a pebbel into the water but it did not create any ripples.
Was it something with the water..I dono
Was it something with the pebbel ...I dono
Was it something with me..probabaly yes

The pebbel sank calmly into the water
There will be no more ripples here after.
Since I will never throw a pebbel into water again.
What diff does it make since either way it did not create any ripples.
I will find new shores and new pebbel which will create ripples
Probabaly I have to find myself within

The recession Effect

2008-11-25T02:08:00.000-08:00

A small conversation b/w friends

Ram: What up buddy
Shyam: Nothing much man my manager is killing me

Ram: Why what happend
Shyam: Nothing but he is simply putting lot of pressure to meet the deadline

Ram: Oh....
Shyam: Cant retaliate also else dono what will happen..situation outside is also not too good
Over that everywhere cost cutting....

Ram: U started smoking again...I thought u had left it.
Shyam: Yes man....cant help....nowadays late night stay....

Ram: Do u have any news abt 6th floor
Shyam: hmmm I heard they have removed 20 people.

Ram: Shit man....if we get fired it will be an experience itself
Shyam: Dont tell like that man....

Ram: forget it..any plans of marrying
Shyam: Joking or what....nowadays people are not giving girl to Software eng

Ram: Oh really I dint know that
Shyam: Yes man...market for Software eng has really gone down

Mom ..took me to temple

2008-11-20T19:29:00.000-08:00

Mothers have unique techniques to make us do things that they want. They know us too well and we fall into the trap

Situation: Mom has kept a Pooja in a temple on a weekday and wants me to attend it. But I need to go to office. But how she makes me come for pooja

Technique: In the night while having dinner Mom would say "Tomorrow there is pooja in XYZ temple which we are doing for everybodies good. You can come to temple and after sankalpam you can leave to office directly from there". Even before I give my opinion the topic is closed.
When Dad asks mom if I am coming, mom will tell "He only told that he also wants to come to temple and will leave to office from there itself". I am left with no option but to go to temple. After Sankalpa is over mom will say "We should not leave the Pooja in between and hence I will be stuck for another hour there itself staring at Poojari's face. The Poojari easily can make out that I want the Pooja to be over as fast as possible

Side Effects:
Got to get up early and take bath
No Breakfast in the morning.
Reach late to office

should I call it traffic Jam

2008-11-17T21:28:00.000-08:00

If I had known that I would be stranded on road for 5 hours why the hell I would have left office. As usual I left at 6:00PM in my cab thinking to reach by 7:30PM. But half way through near Cunningham road I realized that it would not be a normal days travel. The vehicles were crawling inch by inch. An hour later we were just moved 200meter ahead. Me and my friend decided to get down from the Cab and have some food. We went to a resturent near by had Idli, then some Cake. We then went to road side stall to have Omlate. As we had guessed our cab had only moved another 200m ahead. With nothing else to do we again got inside the cab.

All this because of a Political gathering by Janta Dal in Palace ground.

Peaple staying within 5 -7KM alctually walked to their home including my cousin. After an agonising crawling of 4 hours the cab moved letting the air come in. By the time I reached home it was 11PM in the night.
This was not Traffic Jam but political Jamm.

Whats going on

2008-11-13T02:00:00.000-08:00

If you ask me I dont even have time to think whats going on. In the morning I get up and just because I sprint I make it to the Cab on time(5mins late is on time for me). In office we are suppose to work. So obviously I do that and try to do some justice to my Job. Even before I a realize its evening and I have to go to hospital to be with Dad. Just being there with Dad probabaly make mom feel better. Dads recovering from his operation and should be home in another 2-3 days. In the night I reach home at a time when only dogs of my area are awake barking at me. I have my dinner and allow my body to take some rest.
Next day starts with me agian sprinting to catch my office cab. So I am lapping between home - office -- hospital - home

What else: Jay Anusha(both my friends probabaly more than friends) marriage is fastly arriving. So lot of planning going on for it. Daily mail chains running around regarding their marriage plans. One thing I know is I am the cashier for all expenses :). Dont think I am rich, others will transfer fund to my account :)

Vibranz is also going on in office. I participated in Carrom went on till 3rd round. I have a TT match today evening but no much hopes bcoz punters are already practising. I am just the staricase for them to go forward. Fun is in participating.

After all this I am hardly finding time to blog. So I am blogging from office itself.
Other thing that I forgot to mention is that I started liking the book "Ladies coupe". Probabaly in another 2-3 days I should be readind the last few pages of it.
"Kite runner" in my shelf is already waiting for me :)

trying to be poetic

2008-11-13T01:14:00.000-08:00

Like the passing wind its always around me but invisible
I wanna see it but it never reveals itself
I stand here thinking about everything...but things are fading away
I stand here trying to be the same person who I was ..
but things will never be the same
Though I resist one part of mine always wishe the past never changed
Now the time has come that I stop thinking.
May be this had to happen one day and that day has arrived
Its just that I didnt wanna see it
One day you will stand where I stand today
When that happends you will understand how it feels to be me
But dono why still One part of mine always wishes that past never changed.

Dada crosses Chequered flag

2008-11-10T01:18:00.000-08:00

The day 10 Nov 2008 will be remembered for number of reasons. India beat Australia 2-0 fair and sqare.But one reason that will stand out will be the end of a legend, fighter and the person who made Indian cricket what it is today. Dada none other than Sourav Ganguly took field for the last time. His leadership, aggression, grit, determination is not very often seen. Probably that made him the legend he is today.
This guy has seen everything. He was unstoppable and probably the most dangerous batsmen in his prime.

He took over Indian team during the times of turmoil. He led from the front. Backed the team to the fullest. Single Handedly built the Indian team. Taught India to play fearless cricket and has taken Indian cricket another level. heads off the Dada.

After enjoying such highs in cricket. He was stripped of his captaincy. Soon he was stripped off his place in the side. Everybody wrote him off. For a second even I thought his career was over. But Dada showed how much grit and determinination he had to come back. He cake back and came back in style. Now after performing and serving Indian cricket for 13 years today 10 Nov 2008 he has said sayonara to Indian cricket. The best thing for me is he is going on his own terms.

It's not the time to be sad about Dada's exit. It's time to celebrate a fantastic career. It's time to support Dada who has taken such a tough decision.

Heads off to Dada. You are an Inspiration for the future of India cricket.

Books are my companion now.

2008-11-07T03:38:00.002-08:00

I dont want to claim myself as a Chetan Bhagat fan. But his writing surely is worth reading once. I wanted to read "One night at call center" but was too lazy to go get it. But last week I happen to see this book in a stall next to my house. So there you go I had this book. One tihng was sure to finish it off in two days even if I take my own time to read. Anyhow I was not disappointed by this book. I could laugh and enjoy the book.

Dad was hospitalized and I chose to read the book rather than getting bored sitting quitely. So the book was my best companion in hospital rather than the mallu sisters :)

Came to know little bit more about call centers. The book also shows some realities of life. How people compromise in life.
Anyhow I enjoyed readind this one. Now I have started off with a book
"Ladies Coupe". Finding it very difficult to make inroads into the book. Quite serious book about a girl who is 45 and still single.
My brother gave it a try and could not go past the 3rd page...
Will let you guys know if ever finish this one. I will try to but if the lady who is 45 is too serious then I will have to drop it too...

Revival of feel good factor

2008-11-03T01:25:00.000-08:00

Last day of the month(Oct) but its the begining of fun bcoz salary got credidted. It being a Friday is like icing on the cake.
Nid wanted 3 things to be done today. A good cocktail, Good food and a movie. Nid was stuck in office. Actually for him its been rather difficult time in the new project which he has moved to. So he desperately wanted to break free from tension. So the plan was to meet up at Kamadhenu restaurent. If you go by Hindu mythology its the cow, which grants all wishes and desires. So the name made me think for a while but how does it matter. The sad part was the person who needed the most(Nid) could not make it for Drink. Myself and Nish spent an hour there having Good drink.

Out next venture was to find a good place to Dine. "Sea shell" is where we ended up. Had good food from there before we realized its alreadt 9:55PM and we were going to be late for the 10PM show. A triples ride to PVR and some urgency helped us getting 3tickets for "BODY OF LIES". We were lucky because we could see the movie fractionally before anybody else.That the only adv getting the front most seat almost just below the screen. I dont wanna to get into the details of the movie bcoz frankly i did not understand it fully. Couple more attempts of watching it might help. I cant blame the movie bcoz I also slept off in between for 20mins :) before interval.

But the purpose was sloved. The feel good factor was back. Thats more imp for us. Weekend had just started and we were having fun. Thats what I call "Revival of the Feel good factor".

shock of Fashion

2008-11-01T09:59:00.000-07:00

Note: People who want to save money and time and Hair can read Further

If anybody wants to pulls there hair out then you can go watch the movie "Fashion". I must say I am very disaapointed from this movie. Ya Madhur Bhandarkar tried to show some reality of fashion world. How a new face with good attidude tastes success. How success can change attitude into arrogance. How relationships are forgotton when u get too much success. But he reinvented the wheel at least 3 times in this movie.

I think Madhur did not have an editor for this movie. How can it go for 3 hours. Movie like Fashion should not be more than 2hours. But Madhur Bhandarkar had different plans. He wanted to torture us for an Extra hour. The movie was so predictable and people were just waiting for it to end. Several times I felt like leaving the movie hall since it was not ending.

Then only thing that was worth watching was trailers of "Gagini" and "Quantom of Solace" during interval.

Is it that tough??

2008-10-31T03:10:00.000-07:00

Why is it too tough for us to shed our pride at least in matters of love?
Its just a general thought that people always try to play mind games. Why cant they just go and tell what they feel. Is it that tough?

Was never tough for me. Probably its something to do about how clear you are in your decision. A mind which is in doubt will always hesitate thinking abt the commitment. But then if you know what you want you go all gun blazing to get it.

To My Gal :)

2008-10-30T04:32:00.000-07:00

How can I forget the day?
When my only vision was you
The very first time in my life
When I fall in love with you

Many Springs have gone
Nothing had changed
The very first time in my life
Now I think I can be yours

We have had fights
Everything feels as a Bad dream when I closed my eyes
When I open those
There was nothing left

I hold you arm and u hold mine
Lets begin the Journey together
The only thing I know
Is Very first time in my life
I wanna be urs and only urs

Winter Whisper

2008-10-29T20:42:00.000-07:00

Early Morning hidden inside the woolen blanket the last thing you wanna do is to get out of the bed. I fought several battles with myself before my mom said "Are you dropping me or not. I am getting late". I was up on my toes with in min.

I took out my road companion and kicked him hard. It refused to start. Probably that too did not wanna get up from its sleep. Had to kick 3 times to wake it up. This was probably the way winter whispered a "Hi" which I royally ignored.

But as my companion started moving forward I felt somebody is following. I had worn 3 layers of protection but he without any problems entered and gripped me hard and said "Hi I am back". This time I could not ignore him. Winter has arrived on time this season

Yaadon ke saaye -- Tagged

2008-10-28T03:28:00.003-07:00

My oldest memory:
Asking my friend to say a "Yes" so that I could pull out my milk teeth which was shaking from quite some time. A nod of my friends head and there came the milk teeth. Never tried that formula again :)

Ten years ago:
I was in 10th. First time appearing in board exams. After that 3months holiday. Of cource I went ahead and wasted my dad's money by joining a computer cource and the only productive thing that I did was created my first mail id PraveenNethra@yahoo.com. I never sent even one mail and neither did I receive any. Just created it becoz I thought I was in love :)

My first thought this morning:
Oh should I go to office today. Acutal Diwali is today and I am sure most of them will be on off.

If you built a time capsule, what would it contain:
Me and My friends with guitar. My girlfriend would kill me if she reads this so I will take her along :)

This year:
Probabaly the most crucial year in my life. Chaged to a new Job after 4year, bought Flat, decided to get married(will let you know when and where), understood how bitter is truth and how to come in terms with it, a new entry to my Family thats my Bhabhi, started blogging, lot many things happened and the year has not ended yet.

14 years from now:
Would love to have a baby girl who would come running to tell what happend in school. The other thing that I wish from my heart is the group of friends that I have today should be there around for a glass of Drink and we could plan family trips together. We friends have already made a jouney of 8-9 years together and hope we will continue for ever.

kuch is tarah se maine jeevan saja liya...

2008-10-27T08:48:00.000-07:00

kuch is tarah se maine jeevan saja liya
kuch is tarah se maine jeevan saja liya
har baaar eek naya chehara laga liya
thakdeer ki lakeeren hathon mein ruk gayi
kadomen ki aahato se manzil tahar gayi
aapno ki aarazhu ko har par mita diya
har baar eak naya chehara laga liya

Kuch is tarah se maine jeevan saja liya
aapni hi awaaz ko hamne daba diya
gham ko apne seene se laga liya
sapno ki duniya mein apna ghar basa liya
har baar eak naya chehara laga liya

Kuch is tarah se maine jeevan saja liya
raah ke patharoen ko aapna bana liya
Unki khushiyoen mein apna gham bhula diya
zindagi se is tarah humne mooh moad liya
Ki har baar eak naya chehara laga liya
Kuch is tarah se maine jeevan saja liya

The Name thats lost....

2008-10-24T09:39:00.000-07:00

If you think back I am sure you will find a name for urself that somebody special calls you. The name that only the special person knows.You might have been called by different names but this name always will ramain special. You sometimes get attached to names. Thats where you start loosing the battle. We just flow with the feeling. I would say we start developing a split personality. Some feeling come out only when called by the special name. But thats where you have completely lost the battle.

After saying all this...just imagine what happens if the special person is no more special to you. The name now is an orphan. Though you will never forget it but I am sure you will never be called by it again.You can only think about the days when you were called by that name 100 times a day and now u wish he/she calls you once. But that will never happen. Thats why I say the name has now become an orphan.

The name haunts you now..it asks you why did you do this to me. But you will have no answers. If you had answers then it would not be an orphan.Its the name thats lost its existence....thats the Name thats lost everything..thats why The name is now an Orphan

A girl who made all the diff

2008-10-23T21:59:00.000-07:00

It was not a dream but was a reality
but every now and then she made me feel its a dream
At the end of every conversation she would leave me conformarbly numb
Thats the girl who made all the diff

Did not want to stop thinking
Seldom did I know she would run away
But I am happy she looked back serveral time
Thats the Girl who made all the diff

Did not want to let her go
Seldom did I know that she would go so far
But she left her impression behind
Thats the girl who made all the diff

Phoenix in love....

2008-10-23T00:15:00.004-07:00

Love is a thing that gives you as much pain as it gives happiness.
When things do not go the way you want...there are thoughts of disappointment...there is frustration...there are feelings which you cant explain. I know everybody has gone through this feeling of helplessness.
You just want to be alone. You body will be here but mind will be somewhere else. I name this whole thing as a "Passing storm"
Whats love..."Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired." When you dont get love you get disappointed. It takes courage to rise from it. But once you have done that you become a better person.

Thats why I say "The lost love can do more good than harm". So move on with you life and dont lie down on the tracks of history waiting for the train of the future to run over.

Years later when you look back and You smile ....and I say if you do that you have succeeded

Light at end of the Tunnel

2008-10-22T21:24:00.000-07:00

There are times in life when you feel its end of road. There are times when you just dont want to see the reality.
I had to fight with myself to make the road ahead.
Just when I thought that everything is over. I remembered the famous words Nid always says "Its aint over untill its over"
It motivated me and I held myself.
Suddenly I find things have started changing. Everything is falling in place. I feel happy again.
Patience, calmness, understanding others and love never goes unnoticed.
Today "I am what I am". I have left the yesterday behind for a happy future

SkandaGiri --- Trip of a lifetime....trip of Grit and sheer motivation

2008-10-21T21:58:00.000-07:00

29th April 2007 was a day in our lives that made us take our friendships to a totally different level. What was in store on this day was something special and I am sure all of us would remember it forever. We cherish it as our best trip ever.

It was Friday morning(27/04/2007) when Nidish started of a mail chain for a trekking trip. This trekking was different than our usual treks because it was a Plan for a Moonlight trek. It did not take much time for all of us to send a mail saying "Yes I am in".

The MoonLight trekker were Amit,VS,Rakesh,Nish,Sajanu,Sarath,Abhi,Nid and Jay

Saturday 28th Night
9:00PM: Everybody reached my home. We had 4 bikes and a Car.
9:30PM: Our Journey towards Skandagiri near Chikaballapur Started
9:45PM: Everybody realized that we dont even have a torch. Guys said never mind we will still go ahead. It was a Full moon day :) and we were anyhow going for Moonlight trek.
10:15PM: Out first Stop near Devanahalli was for having dinner in a Dhabha.
11.15PM: Finished dinner and from a lorry driver bought a small torch.

Sunday 29th
12:00AM: Reached the base of the Skandagiri mountain
12:05AM: Woke up people sleeping near the base to ask for a guide. But nobody was willing to come
12:20AM: One guys just showed us a way where we can start the trek(I really thank this guy for showing us the wrong way).
12:30AM: We started our trek with full Josh :). We could not find any trails. But we are not the ones who follow trails. We make our own way.
01:30AM: We realized we had reached a dead end. There was no way forward. We also then realized that the guy showed us the wrong way.
02:00AM: We were again back to square one from where we had started. The single torch also ran out of Battery. But Moon was bright enough :)
But not even for once we thought of going back without trekking :)

Suddenly from 1KM far we saw a light flashing. We started moving towards the light. Even from the otherside the light was moving towards us. We went close enough so that we could shout and talk.
Since I was the only kannada guy, I shouted "Yaar adu". It was a villeger with a strong torch on his head. We could hardly see him due to the bushes all around.
We were hesitant but we moved forward closer to him. We were stunned to see him with a rifle in his hand. We could not go back also because we were just at 20 feet distance from him.
I must say I took a deep breath and went closer to him and started speaking to him in kannada. I also asked him to give his rifle to me since I was afraid.
Since he was a local guy we convinced him to become our Guide.

02:15AM: We started our Treck again. We were already tired because we had finished an unsuccessful trek.
03:00AM: The Guide took from the ways that we could not even imagine. He was climbing so effortlessly that we just were stunned.
After close to an hour our tiring body made us ask him the question "Guruve inna yeshtu mele hogbeku" which means "how much more left."
The reply which we got only made us more tired. He said "We still have to climb 3 times what we had already covered"
03:30AM: Our bodies started screaming for rest. We were climbing a steep rock. There was no point looking down because it would only worsen things. Wind trying its best to push us down. Every step was a challenge. Where ever possible we held the rock and rested for couple of minutes. Had a sip of water probably every 30sec :). Suddenly my water bottle slipped. It just went rolling down. That made us realize what would happen if we slip.

4:00AM: We again asked the Guide how much more to go. But the guide never wanted to make us feel better. He said "Sir you have only come half way".
I bet half of us did not want to continue since our bodies had given up. But it was impossible to go back the way which we came in. Not even the guide could go back the same way. So we had only one way out. To only go forward.

4:30AM: From far we thought we could see the peak. But when we were almost abt to reach we realized it was just the beginning of the next peak.
I had never felt so tired in my life. But then I knew others were more tired than I was. Myself and Nid motivated others by saying "Little more to go". "We can do it". "We have done this before"
Every 10 steps we took rest. I cannot forget Sajanu who weighed almost 100Kg climbing. For every 2 steps he took he rested. At a point I was afraid if he would fall since the climb was steep and wind blowing pushing us down. For a moment I also thought what we would say if Sajanu died. All kinds of thoughts started coming into my mind. But it only made me give a hand to sajanu and made sure I held him pulling him up for every step he took.

5:00AM: We could see the last mountain that we had to climb. Me and Nid used to climb faster than others. After climbing little bit we used to say "Its very easy to climb". "Come on Guys its not tuff". We could see everybody was just dragging their body which was not ready to go any further. But our Grit and determination. The motivation that each we were giving to each other made us do all this.

5:30AM: The last step of the summit. If anybody has not seen heaven then ask us how it feels to be in heaven. We had never felt happier in life. We had achieved something that was close to impossible. We found new energy. The adrenalin was pumping. We were no more tired. We just hugged each other for finishing the trek.

Things were not over yet. Our great Nishanth had a surprise. He took out the wine bottle. Believe me Wine had never tasted better. Few sips of wine to celebrate our climb.
We were bang on time to see the Beautiful Sunrise. The cold breeze, friends, Wine, beautiful Sunrise what else can you ask for in a Bachelors Life.

That was one of the best Moon light trek we ever had.
A big thanks to the guy who showed us the wrong way because if he had shown the correct way. It would have been like any other trek where we had to follow the trail and climb without much difficultly.
But because of the wrong way it made the climb special and memorable.

A morning to Remember

2008-09-29T02:25:00.000-07:00

Sometimes things comes your way unexpectedly. I think Saturday morning was one of them. I had traveled to Mysore on Friday evening and we all friends(Me, Nid, PP, Nish) met to spend one of the most memorable nights. What happened and what was discussed in the night will remain secret. So by the time we all went to bed it was 3AM in the morning. Final words before sleep from Nid was "Machu wake me up early tomorrow I will take you to a special place".
We all slept in the ambiance where V TV was continuously running on one side, Nish trying to pull my blanket, PP lying half on bed half on the floor. But still there was so much serenity in everybodies sleep :).
Suddenly my phone made a sound and woke me up. It was a message from my friend. Thanks for waking me up since Nid had plans to take me to a special place. The Time showed 5:30 in the morning. After many unsuccessful try to wake up Nid, he at last he got up at 6:30.
I was in my tracks and sleeveless T-Shirt. Nid was in his usual three-fourths and pullover. The plan was for a morning bike ride to the Mysore university. As soon as we came out of the room the fresh smell of Mysore air had made its impression on me. We took the bike(without helmet) and started towards our destination. Nid was ridding slowly just to enjoy the morning. Our first pit stop was a the T-Stall in the university campus behind the ladies hostel. We looked at each other and said that sometimes when we just wake up and come we look smarter :). We had tea and I fed the dog which was looking at me with so much hope, a bun. I don't like to disappoint anybody :).

We could see people walking in the campus and were jealous of not having such a place in Bangalore. I said to myself "Never mind now that we are here lets enjoy this freshness". We then parked the bike near somewhere and took a walk to the kukkarahalli lake. We both sat near the lake for almost an hour discussing about what we have gained in life and what we have lost. We had our answers right in front of us
"We have such good friend... that's the biggest gain in life. The answer for what we have lost was that "Our friends never make us feel that we have lost anything". That's how much we support our friends.

That's why probably Shijin bhai once said "There are 3 levels of friends I have seen. After seeing you people I understood there is a 4th level too".
The next place within the university where we went was the lush green huge university playground. We walked in the ground for sometime listening to music. It was almost 9 in the morning and we could see parents coming to drop their daughters. Nid always liked Mysore girls so he was happy to see them back. After all this our stomach was asking for some food. We both went to KD road and had breakfast at Green leaf.

The sun was bright enough to suggest us that the morning was almost over. So we headed back to the room after enjoying one of the finest morning of my life till date :).

One of those days when a slice of memory from the past make you feel good

2008-09-24T02:46:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking to write this from quite some time but either I was too lazy or I used to think will I be really truthful while writing. At last I thought let me give it a try.
People call me VS. You will find me responding faster when you call me with that name. My full name is Praveen Kumar VS. I still did not understand why my Dad added the Kumar in between. Never mind my family has my Dad M.K Shivanna, my mother VB Gayathri, my brother Deepak and the latest entry to the family was my bhabhi Deepa. I think by the time I finish this blog even i will be married :).

My complete schooling from 1st to 12 th was done in Kendriya Vidyalaya AFS. I can say, that was a real good foundation for my life. Thinking of those school days just makes me feel so happy. There were no worries at all. The only thing we had to do is study and play. Rather play and then study :). Let me start my stories class wise.

i still remember class 7th when we made our first friends group and named it as Pandavs. Me(Nakul), Himanshu(Arjun), Amit(Sahadev), Khande(Bheem), Mani(Yudhishtir). I would never forget Birju also became part of Pandavs by becoming the Dog that followed Pandavs in the Pilgrimage of Death. The group lasted only 1 year since Himanshu and Khande left the school. But we had our share of fun during this one year. We also used to play langadi taang along with girls. 7th was also probabaly last time we played any outdoor games with girls. Cricket fever had entered in my life.

8th standard was again special because the most beautiful girl of our school became my bench mate. I am sure so many were jealous of it but thanks to Pankajam mam who did that. She was probably the most silent girl before she sat with me. We used to speak a lot and we used to get scoldings in the class for talking. I was Named "Chatter box" but nothing stopped me from talking. I was probably the most mischievous guy in my class.
The only thing I was bothered during school was to play cricket. In the morning we used to come little early just to play short cricket. Even used to bunk the class, go to the squash court behind our school to play cricket. I was a cricket star in school. I remember kids waiting for me to go and bat. I used to love it when kids used to say "Sit sit don't go Praveen Bhaiya ki batting next hai". Cricket made me quite famous in school and also made couple of girl propose me. But never did I reply anything to those girls. I was too much into cricket that nothing else did I want in life :).

9th Standard. How can I forget the beating that I got from PT sir for playing WWF cards in the class that too sitting over the bench :). PT sir called us to his room and then asked me to teach him how to play WWF cards. As soon as he removed his watch I knew that I am going to see stars today. Every time I told him a rule, I got beatings from his folded cabel wire. Then we all had to fold our pants and crawl 10 rounds on the jerry mat. That was the last time I ever got beating in the school. That was also the last time I heard PT sir's usual dialog for me "kalranna nambidaru kulranna nambarathu".

10th standard. The only thing I remember is every teacher saying that we are going to face Board exams. Phool madam(Hindi), Rangaswamy sir(maths), Devika Madam(Social), Thewani madam(English) who made us study study and study more. But I was never bothered about all that. I always used to study a week ago to exams. Anyhow the most memorable thing during 10 was the hunger strike we did in front of Principal room for not giving Hall tickets to the students who did not score well during pre-board exams. Guys broke tube lights, fan, blackboard in the class. At last we only had to pay the fine for breaking it :).
First time I got nervous during board exams. While writing the papers I never for a min look anywhere else. Anyhow that how I faced my first Board exams like a good student for the first time :P.

11th Standard. I should tell that this is when I realized we were grown up guys. I got new friends Mrinal, Nitin, Vineet, Sudheer. Cricket was still on top of my list. This was the first time that girls became part of our group. Deepthi, Shash, Pallavi. This was the time when I had my first crush. It was none other than my chemistry teacher. No wonder I started liking chemistry. I just wanted to be best in chemistry. In lab I used to be the first to finish the lab. My chemistry record book used to be upto date. Thus I became the Fav student of Chemistry Madam. But not to mention I still got scoldings. Cant forget her dialog "Sit down sit down" in the mallu accent. I hated physics because I hated physics sir(Munga).

I also passed NDA written exam and was called for interview. The interview was in Mysore and I remember waiting in the mysore railway station from where all the candidated were picked by NDA officers. Those 5 days in mysore will always remain special. I lived a the life of a cadet. I missed becoming a pilot by a whisker. Out of the final 3 only 1 was selected. I was disappointed but as I said those 5 days made me a proud person and gave me loads of confidence.

I was also proposed by a girl when I was in 11th. She was my junior but I never said a word to her. I never even made eye contact with her. She tried her best to talk to me but somehow I was never bothered.

12th Standard. Friends Friends Friends. The only thing I used to be bothered about. Probably had more fun than ever. Cant forget Mrinal who could manage to flirt with any girl he wants. At one time he was having affair with two girls that too in our class only. He never used to stick to one girl for more than 2 months. I still remember me, Nitin going to one of the girl who really got serious about Mrinal. We told her that Mrinal wants to concentrate on studies so forget him. Vineet also fell in love with a girl in our class. So I think Love was in the air. Not to mention I was also in love but the difference was that the girl was not in our school but she was in Native. I used to give money to Mani to get gifts for her, since there was no good shop near my house. Later I realized that he used to charge me more and used to have fun with my money. Anyhow he used to get good gift so I forgive him. I also remember selling old books so that I could treat my friends for Birthday. Guess what was the treat. Kulfi near Air force canteen :). Teachers day was also fun and I had become English teacher. I bet student had real fun during my class. That is when I realized how good a teacher I can be. Anyhow one day I will be a teacher. Within no time Board exams were on our head and it was time to get serious about studies. We have had enough fun through out the year. So at last I studies and did fairly well in my exams.

Schoold days got over but I am happy that I am still in touch with all of my schoold friends. We dont meet often but when we meet we have fond memories to talk about.

Thats how was my school days. Those were the best of my life. School days were over and something better in my life was waiting for me. My college Days. Stay tuned till I write about my college days.